Its human development and management in UPM

After a few days of asking and answering,and also after a few sessions of counselling each other,consulting this who that who...
Finally,most of us made the final decision~

Okie okie...i got HUMAN DEVELOPMENT AND MANAGEMENT in UPM...faculty of human ecology they call it~
The 1st moment i knew i get this course...i was like...WAT THE F?Did i choose this course(coz i 4got to print out the page the 2nd time i made the correction)...y all my friends can get 1st or 2nd choice sedangkan i get sth out of my 8 choices???
I tried to do some research on this course but damn god hard to find it loh...i started to complain to my parents then i even cried coz i really didn't know wat the hell to do~
and then after tht i recall back...*yalor hor...i guess i put it in my 4th or 5th choice loh*
Pahtu...i go do do do research again...then i called CHONG YEW CHUAN(thx aiya~)to seek for some advice+my dad analyse the situation for me...

i started to think back the issue i'd been thinking eversince i submitted the Uni application form...
"DO I INSIST OF STUDYING LAW?Y?"
so after some struggling and considering..then this and that(long story...malas nak tulis lah)
watz so bad bout human development and management?this was my strong part in school isnt it?
juz tht i BETONG loh when ppl keep on asking me:"HAR...u wana study HR ar?

Hello there,there are many other route other than only HR loh...so wat?HR very poor meh?

okok...i will still study LAW...its juz a matter of sooner or later lah k~

我...卑微?骄傲?

终于快要去读书了,虽然要离开家里,还是有舍不得

但是离开这个城市,对我来说,应该才算是真正摆脱了一些阴影吧!

算一算时间,我们分手也两年了......

这两年来,我经历了没有他的喜怒哀乐,他也经历了没有我的人生大事.

我们之间的距离,已经离两年,更远更远了

两年来,从适应到习惯,直到释怀,我一直在学习......

虽然,这期间,还会有一些让人心痛的关怀简讯,电话,甚至见面~

我会从这些伤痛里,渐渐减去这种残忍的安慰,直到,我可以安然面对,甚至明白他走出了我的人生

自分手后,从他口中说出的,都是还没忘情之类的话语.

讽刺的是,我却一直在大家口中听到:他和她结婚了,注册了,甚至快当父母了...这些话,却又从没由他口中告诉我

每一次,都是我佯装坦然的问他,他才会怯怯的承认

我也一直明白,我们之间,不管多不舍得,也已经是过去式了

所以,从开始的会心痛伤心,到后来根本无动于衷~

我并不知道,今时今日,他的话,还影响我不浅!

过了很久,我们的生活一直是两条平行线,甚至渐行渐远...从前,我们是Y,后来变H,现在,应该快变X了

最近,他又开始找我了,而且,说了太多已经不该再说出口的话了...

虽然,我知道,我应该怎么做,但我担心,会让感性取胜理智

在我内心深处,还是放不下一些东西,不是对人,也不是对情,说是什么,又说不上来.只是,还是会有一股答应见他的冲动,我必须压着!!!

今天,在开车的路上,MY FM 播了"伤痕"这首歌

"女人独有的天真,和温柔的天分,要留给真爱你的人,不管未来多苦多难,有他陪你完成"

真爱还在不在,我不清楚了...但十分肯定的,他不能陪我完成那不知会多苦多难的未来!

见了他,我们又能怎么样呢?

父亲节刚过,明天,是我妈的生日...一直以来,我深深明白,他们并不求我拿到十分好的成绩,也不望我会赚很多很多的钱.妈时常告诉我,她希望,培养的是我们的EQ.

我也常问自己,我能给他们什么?

我或许无法给他们一个十分听话的女儿,或许,我也赚不了很多很多的钱让他们环游世界,

但至少,我可以给他们一个有尊严的女儿

愚蠢的我,为了感情,曾经让自己变得卑微,变得没有自我

若我的父母知道了,应该会很心痛吧?

为了他们,也为了我自己,我会,保留那一份骄傲

这份感情,应该保留给可以陪我完成不管多苦多难的未来的那个他,对吗?

Go to School

A long long holiday......

I guess i had the longest school holiday ever in my life~

Part of my holiday were occupied by some trips and vacation
I join Lions Club's youth exchanging program in December
I went to Koh samui,Thailand with a bunch of friends in January
I went to Genting with somebody in February
I went to take my STPM result back at SMCH in March
I went to Penang,accompanying miss YY in April
I went to KL on a one day one nite trip with my family in May
I went to Pulau Redang with another bunch of friends in June
and finally,will be receiving the local-U announcement someday in this week~

7months of school holiday after the torturing form 6 life(only the study part)
I thought it would be very very relaxing and I would be very very happy...the truth is,it was really really relaxing and I was REALLY REALLY boring~
I felt like losing some motivation or target of life in this very particular period(except for the vacations part)......

During the working-3months:
wakeup-go to work-mingle with the kids-teach them-eat lunch-teach kids-entertain parents with their questions-go home-dinner-sometimes do some shopping with mom-TV+internet+sometimes yumcha-bed-wakeup........

these were the daily routines

During the non-working months:
sleep late late-wake up late late-breakfast-TV-lunch-TV-dinner-TV-sometimes go aerobic or badminton+chit chat at yumcha events with friends
(can anybody tell me...how can i not bcom fat with this kind of lifestyle?sigh*)

I used to complain about the short one month year end holiday!so many newspaper cutting and synopsis to do...only got one month weh brother~

Now...I try to find things to do...write some nonsense before i forgot how to write with my hand holding a pen

Finally,will be Balik-ing to sekolah,although this time,the sekolah is called University

But still, I feel down that we are getting apart soon~

Some will b going to S'pore,some here and some there(somewhere lah)...Form 6 life seems far now...i miss it~

SIGH*